. Selfish

18/09/2020

If I could write about you, I’d probably never stop

Our energy is different and some would call it love

And all I ever wanted was to be on top 

And honestly never knew I would fall this much

The only thing that occupies my days are your bare thoughts

How can one be so sure but so lost

What to do and what to say 

you’ve taken over my days

However its not insane and honestly I can’t complain

You’ve let me with no control, im stuck In this defence 

I wish I could say more but honestly, It wouldn’t make any sense

How did you do it, it happened in the past

I promised myself that last time was the last

So confused do I go ? do I ask?

Your love is viral, and I didn’t put on a mask

The crazy thing is

Your beauty wasn’t what attracted me

Your laugh wasn’t what attracted me

Your voice wasn’t what attracted me

Your eyes were not what attracted me

Your thoughts and intellect were not what attracted me

Then what did

I guess the idea of being with you. 

The vision and foresight that makes me fall in love with business ideas

The understanding and vibe we have for each other

But you’re way more than just a business thought

You’re way more than just another plot

And even though the world was made for you

I hope you don’t get famous

Cause if the world knew what I knew

I definitely wouldn’t stand a chance

Theres no way you would go for a man like me if you had options

Next time a man meets you, proceed with caution

Breaking hearts should be on the list of your side hobbies even though you just see it as fun

But I wish

I wish I could travel with you

I wish I could stare at the night sky with you on dark twilight Sundays

I wish I could call you whenever I felt like

I wish I could text you on my way home 

I wish I could sleep on FaceTime with you

I wish I was your man

I wish I could make you fall in love with thought of being with me

As I am with you

But most importantly I wish I didn’t meet you In the beginning

So im sorry 

I’m sorry that I think you’d be better off without your man

I’m sorry that I think about you every night before I sleep

I’m sorry that I think about our call every time of the day

I’m sorry that I wished you were mine

I’m sorry but I have to leave 

So I can write and I can wish

For as long as I want but sadly you’re on a leash

I want the best for you and surely your voice ill miss

Maybe someday I wouldn’t be this selfish.