WeirdAmirToFatima

Hello. I apologize all of this came so sudden. I'm not wrong regularly. But when I am, I doubt my self worth. I know I promised I'll always be there but I knew this had to happen at some point. You made me the best person I could be. I've seen perfect in your eyes. And I know I'll probably not see it like I did. Maybe more maybe less. But not you. We went on this journey blind folded. You said "walk with me, let's see where this road takes us" and I agreed. I took a leap of faith. I went against my ethics and principles. I was selfish. And behold, just like life, everything was colourful again. The birds sang louder, the butterflies flew in slow motion and time was still. I'll never forget the first time I saw you, and immediately i pictured you there sitting with my kid. Ever since then I've been glued. The phone calls when we sleep, when we shower. Being with you was a fairy tale I never thought would not end in a happily ever after. Our bistro m...

FATIMA 20/10/2020 I want you to bite my lip until I can no longer speak And then suck my ex-girlfriend’s name out of my mouth just to make sure she never comes up in our conversations I’m going to be honest, I’m not really a love poet In fact, every time I try to write about love my hands cramp… just to show me how painful love can be And sometimes my pencils break, just to prove to me that every now and then love takes a little more work than you planned See I heard that love is blind so, I write all my poems in Braille And my poems are never actually finished because true love is endless I always believed that real love is kind of like a super model before she’s air brushed; It’s pure and imperfect, just the way that God intended See I’m going to be honest, I’m not a love poet But if I was to wake up tomorrow morning and decide that I really wanted to write about love I swear that my first poem… It would be about you About how I loved you the same way that I learned how to ride a bik...

  . Selfish 18/09/2020 If I could write about you, I’d probably never stop Our energy is different and some would call it love And all I ever wanted was to be on top   And honestly never knew I would fall this much The only thing that occupies my days are your bare thoughts How can one be so sure but so lost What to do and what to say   you’ve taken over my days However its not insane and honestly I can’t complain You’ve let me with no control, im stuck In this defence   I wish I could say more but honestly, It wouldn’t make any sense How did you do it, it happened in the past I promised myself that last time was the last So confused do I go ? do I ask? Your love is viral, and I didn’t put on a mask The crazy thing is Your beauty wasn’t what attracted me Your laugh wasn’t what attracted me Your voice wasn’t what attracted me Your eyes were not what attracted me Your thoughts and intellect were not what attracted me Then what did I guess the idea of being with you. ...

  . 13/10/2020 Today, I won't be writing any poems. Today I'd like to think and type freely.   She's amazing. Every part of her. Every thought of her cripples me. I don't know how it happened. Meeting her was fate, being her friend was a choice but feeling things for her I had no control over.   I understand her, atleast I think I do. After Aysha I taught myself that I actually didn't need anyone to be the best person I could be. Now I'm falling back into that's same circle. But on a different level.   She's different. And I get that everyone is, but she's literally the dream. the drug. The pain and the laughter. If I'd ever have a spontaneous relationship where we'd be able to discuss and be the best version of ourselves, it would be with her. Atleast for now. But that's what life does right? Shows you what you need, then stops you from getting it. And I'm in that space rn. The "so be it" phase. If it doesn't happen, it...

  /\ 15/10/2020 She’s amazing every bit of her. On the day I think I love her, is the day I'd have to stop loving her.   I can’t do this. I can’t. She just told me what she feels and how amazing of a guy he is, and I can see it. I can see the love and happiness in her subtle smile. There’s nothing In life I ever wanted and didn’t want at the same time, she looks so happy and content. And it’ll kill me to force her to make a decision. I know a part of me feels like ill never get to see someone as amazing as her and at the same time, I’m also scared I never get to love someone as much as I love her. I know ill forever look for her in everyone I meet, I know i’ll never forget her. I’m happy and satisfied with who she is and who she is with. And on this note, I conclude any further notes about this person. Any further feelings will be discarded, any thoughts or sudden love gestures will be avoided. I will forever acre about her and everything she’s made of, every decision she’s ma...